(A man stands on a hill. He sings his lament as a flock of people circles him, growing ever closer until finally they consume him. They sing in echoes and murmurs.)
On my humble Calvary
The candid whisper
Cuts my resolve.
The bleating chorus
Brings my sentence
Explicitly
This is the end.
I must abide
The curdled wait
Dripping like old honey
Crystals of unrest,
Protest, dissent.
I know the hard bits
Are the sweetest.
This slow river of regret
Holds my will together.
The rolling gold
Is the glue of my resolve
Beset with pearls of guilt.
I wish to rename it
“River of my repent”
Its amber lava tides
Erasing my actions:
Unsign, unsay, unsent.
I will be the mountain
All bare and ready
To be made new again.
But to unsign the page
Is not penance,
To unsay the words
Will not make them unheard,
And the unsent
Is always there to be read.
Somewhere, there exists a sin.
So I asked my light
What have I done
And can it ever
Be undone?
What can I do
To truly undo
The mass destruction
I have wrought?
To tell the truth
Is heaven’s milk:
Strong enough to feed
Both lions and lambs
Yet thick enough
To choke a good man.
And I am not a good man.
I waver and I ripple
And that is my weakness.
Sticky with guilt
I stand and wait
For my maker’s forgiveness.
But is it enough?
Have I done enough?
Will this life
Have been enough?
Come all you sheep,
You bleating chorus,
Bleed me where I stand.
I am the goat among you:
Scapegoat, hooved man,
I am the devil and the lamb.
All I ask
All I can ask
All I will ask of you:
Rise up, rise up
And raise yourself up!
Rise up, rise up
And raise yourself up!
And as I fall
Watch me fall
For I will fall
And be at peace again.
